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2028-01-12 05:45 am
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is there anybody out there?
am i just screaming to the void?
are you a
freak like me?
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2025-02-03 04:40 am
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FIRSTLIGHT
IAO.SYS5
BLANKBODY

ALIAS: MOUSE

THREAT LEVEL:
Low/Moderate

AFFILIATION:
No affiliation, clan priority.
POSSIBLE CONNECTIONS:
  • "WHISTLER" !INFOSEC!. Alias possible reference to phreaking, known to be connected to ShreckNET operation. Assume associates are similarly skilled
  • (NKA) Codename Rosa, female Nosferat, known Anarchist connections, companion of Whistler??
  • Via Whistler: GERHARDT WEBER SPECIAL TARGET Extremely well-connected, records indicate at least century old. Contacts in Chicago, Berlin, possibly New York. Master forger, unparalleled intel gatherer, sources very well hidden. Possibly military trained in life. APPROACH ARMED AND WITH PRECAUTION
SUSPECTED IDENTITY:

[REDACTED] - suspected previous human conspirator for Gary group, identified tentatively with missing person ▮▮▮▮▮ ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮. Age at suspected infection roughly aligns with timeline. See below (Background)

HISTORY & KNOWN BACKGROUND
SYS | ADM

▮▮▮▮▮ ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮ grew up in the ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮ / ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮ area. Father absent, mother living with boyfriend. All multiply on record for drug related offenses and domestic disputes, mother subject of home inspections on several occasions. Children were removed from the home after DCF investigation, followed domestic assault incident involving methamphetamine intoxication during which met police forwarded concerns.

Rough timeline [Note: records not all digitalized: state/metropolitan level, scanned records on file often hand-written due to dates]

  • ▮▮▮▮▮ and sister ▮▮▮▮▮ placed together in emergency foster care with intent to place with kin pending inspections
  • Placed in longer term group home, then with family ??? unclear how often/many, at least 2, several kin placements
  • ▮▮▮▮▮ on file reporting abuse, recanted before any official investigation.
  • Father's family appealed to take younger child, ▮▮▮▮▮ registered wish to not be separated from older sister, this seems to have been ongoing with family (maternal relatives) stepping in
  • Second report of abuse. During ongoing investigation ▮▮▮▮▮ ran away from group home.
  • A Missing Person's report was filed at this time but no result/followup.

(Sister subsequently placed with paternal grandparents and remained in their custody until age 18. After some early arrests for possession as a juvenile, she remains on the grid, clean record, holds stable position in workplace and has children. [Leverage??])

CONCLUSIONS

FIRSTLIGHT's position is that evidence shows that ▮▮▮▮▮ reached Gary, IN some months later and was taken in by Whistler and female companion within a year. Shortly thereafter local SAD reports confirm young teen or preteen of similar build and description may have begun doing daytime tasks for the Gary cluster. It is unusual to see children used as assistants to infected in this area but not unheard of, moreover Nosferats are unselective about their human counterparts, befriending homeless, disabled and drug users who are not in positions to judge their monstrous appearance. An agreement to keep a young girl safe from other predators in return for favors may well have been an alluring method to procure her services.

The daytime tasks seemed to pass on to some other about ▮▮▮ ▮▮▮▮, seems plausible that after a particular term of servitude ▮▮▮▮▮ was "rewarded" with the promise of eternal life.

While not a distinct threat on her own, her possible connection to GERHARDT WEBER and known affiliation with infosec concerns may make "Mouse" a potential weak spot in the Gary network.
NEXT STEP: look into ▮▮▮▮▮ ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮ to confirm probable relationship and possible (...)>>

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info
name mouse
canon original | v:tm / wod
PB art + aurora aksnes
appearance
Members of the Nosferatu Clan universally go through a painful deformation of their original body when they go through the process of being Embraced as vampires; what those changes are are not predictable or uniform.
DISTINGUISHING FEATURES
HAIR: White-blonde; blunt bangs. Occasionally she dyes the bottom or streaks it, but it doesn't last long.

EYES:

L: white/clouded over the pupil, "dead". | R: light grey


SKIN: Extremely pale with noticable dark veining especially around the eyes and mouth. Mottled with darker spots and various kinds of scarring.

FANGS: Her fangs are (appropriately for a Nos AND a "Mouse") the front two incisors, with shorter fanged precanines. Her canines are pointy, but within human range.

STYLE: Eye-catching and cute: she blends 80s, pastel-goth and nerd-comfy, breaking up dark colors with pastels or neons, multiple patterns, and graphics. Loves big accessories and bright eyeshadow; tends not to hide her less-"normal" attributes.

PROPORTIONS: "Extreme" is a good way to put it. The transformation stretched and pinched: Mouse has very deepset, shadowed eyes and a small, long chin, but extended, wide cheekbones, lending her a skullish, sharp look.

This is true of the rest of her as well: she has a waspish waist to hip ratio, an upturned, delicate nose but wide/out-turned ears; long hands and thin wrists.

She's relatively short, but her limbs are a little longer for her height than her torso is and she can (and does) like to curl up, crouch, perch, or otherwise make herself even smaller.
permissions
OOC
BACKTAGGING: I'm probably the one backtagging!
Go right ahead, I'll tag things forever. If I owe a tag just poke me.
THREADJACKING: Ask first if it's not a network/somewhere else public and expected, but the answer will usually be yes, as long as everyone else is okay with it.
FOURTHWALLING: I mean...she's an OC? But they can know about V:tM/WoD. The canon itself is pretty meta, and Mouse will talk eagerly about multiverses. OOC LIMITS: ...increasingly nothing, tbh, though warnings always appreciated so I can prepare. Oh:
  • burrowing/parasitic insects, dfsljd
  • Will not play-by-play sexual assault
  • Very sensitive to seizure-related death (hypoxia/head trauma/drowning/SUDEP etc) scenes
IC
FLIRTING: Go for it! She's often a bit flirty in a lighthearted way. She may or may not believe you're serious.
TOUCH: Yes; she'll probably be a little tense at first, but depending on context, warms up (metaphorically) fast.
HUGS: Yep! Same as touching. She will sometimes initiate hugs and cuddles when she's comfortable around someone. KISSING: Has never had a first kiss that Actually Counted, so this one'll take some time. Kissing, capital K, on the other hand...(actually, she'd be surprised by someone being actively into that...but substantially less nervous about doing it.)
SEX: ⚠️ Mouse is a-spec and a CSA survivor. She is sex-positive, but let's talk this out first.
FIGHTING: While her strengths lie in stealth, research and tuning in to animals, not pummeling, she IS a functionally immortal supernatural creature with fangs and she has killed people. So, go for it, just, good luck.
INJURING: Yes, if it makes sense; obviously don't god-mod it.
TELEPATHY: Ok: she wouldn't have much barrier against this, though she'd be somewhat sensitive to it happening. Give me a heads up and I'll give you some insights or include them in narration.
MIND CONTROL: ⚠️ Similar, but the violation aspect of being compelled could be triggery to her, so please talk to me first so I can figure out how to play it.
DEATH: Unlikely to come up, especially without her hitting torpor first. Uh, don't set her on fire without asking me, I guess?
player
name faye
contact wingedvoices @ plurk
time zone cst
OPT OUTS / WARNINGS
PLEASE NOTE:
Mouse's tags will almost certainly include any/all of the following:
  • death/undeath
  • blood drinking, hunger for blood (all the vampire stuff)
  • awareness of (and description, possibly) of her physical "abnormalities"
and will possibly mention (unlikely to describe in detail, at least without prior notice):
  • murder, including premeditation and stalking
  • child abuse
  • vaguely implied CSA and/or triggers/dissociation around the topic
  • drug use
  • camming and fetishization of monstrosity/fully taking advantage of it
If you'd like to opt out of any of the topics above, please let me know, comments are screened.


ABILITIES
Mouse also has, besides the base-level advanced speed and strength of a vampire, the particular abilities to blend into the background and move with extreme stealth, call and ask favors of groups of (vertebrate, and except in rare occasions, omnivorous or carnivorous) animals, and have a familiar-esque relationship with one (small) animal at a time, communicating on a somewhat telepathic level.
If she was going to use any of these against another character I would always ask first, but if you have a particular ability (or a particular animal, for instance) that you prefer I never have her use against yours, again please let me know!

And of course, if for any reason you'd rather Mouse never plot or tag with yours you're welcome to tell me here.



OFFENSIVE TOPICS

BY Mouse: above, along with a deeply "meh" response to "happy family" imagery. Will (once she feels reasonably secure) be pretty blase about her ability to hack/otherwise compromise security systems, and also about doxing and feeding on "abusive assholes".

TO Mouse: She's not super easily offended and she tends to give even her own offensive topics some leeway. Things that will piss her off: people trying to insult someone via looks; someone talking about harming children (someone talking about children BEING harmed, if they're obviously against it, will see her get quietly outraged but she won't be offended that it came up). General dismissiveness or bias against people in underprivileged positions (homeless, mentally or physically disabled, impoverished) will not get you on her good side.
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2020-01-15 02:38 pm
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on the headset

nightshift
(i never looked back)
0:00
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Survivor2WEI, Edda Hayes
Thought I couldn't breathe without you, i'm inhaling Thought I couldn't see without you, perfect vision Thought I couldn't last without you but I'm lastin' You thought that I would die without you but I'm livin'

NOTE: this one is somewhat more for the vibes. others that are instrumentals, less for the lyrics than the sound, illustrating a general feeling or are just something mouse would listen to are listed at the bottom under "bonus tracks" even though they're not ordered that way in the playlist itself.)
NIGHTSHIFTMOTHICA
Used to be a people pleaser, now I please myself When the moonlight hits, I turn to something else
Step on my neck, now I'm cuttthroat Insomnia can't keep my eyes closed
Switchin' my ego to dark mode Watch how I twist like a cyclone Then I go nightshift, like this Don't cross me 'cause I don't miss
Twinkle LightsSonder Bombs
At fourteen years old I finally had to say "No" And at fourteen years old I finally had to let go. AT fourteen years old I was basically fully grown I was fourteen years old but still the saddest kid I'll ever fucking know I don't really talk about it though.
BackyardWhale Bones
Lay me down in the backyard Like I always knew that I should be And hold me down in the front yard 'cause I don't always do what I believe. I hope you'll find me I hope you'll find me
Stand up bold, give up your scars Let beauty and hope consume your pain Hold on hope, you're not that far Be another you another day I hope you'll find me I hope you'll find me
Seventeen Going UnderSam Fender
I was far too scared to hit him But I'd hit him in a heart beat now That's the thing with anger It begs to stick around So it can fleece you of your beauty And leave you spent wi' nowt to offer Makes you hurt the ones who love you You hurt them like they're nothing
Leaving TonightThe Birthday Massacre
There's a path running under the city Where the stones and the hills divide There's a path we can walk through the loss and the pity She's out of the light, she thought it'd be safer (...) There's a girl sleeping under the river Where the snow and the rain collide There's a girl that we watch and we'll soon be with her
I Know A PlaceMUNA
I knew, When you told me you don't wanna go home tonight And you tried to just shrug it off when I asked you why Somebody hurt you Somebody hurt you, but you're here by my side
And I knew, 'Cause I can recall when I was the one in your seat I still got the scars and they occasionally bleed Cause somebody hurt me Somebody hurt me, but I'm staying alive
And I can tell when you get nervous You think being yourself means being unworthy And it's hard to love with a heart that's hurting But if you want to go out dancing I know a place
Grace KellyMika
Do I attract you? Do I repulse you with my queasy smile? Am I too dirty, am i too flirty, do I like what you like? I could be wholesome, I could be loathsome, I guess I'm a little bit shy. Why don't you like me, why don't you like me, without making me try? (...) Why don't you like me, why don't you like me? Why don't you like yourself?
Freak Like MeTransviolet
Lost in a dream I had when I was young No, I never woke up from it I broke a chain, I turned and ran No, I never looked back again
Is there anybody out there? Hello, can you hear me? Or am I just screaming to the void? I'm not looking for a savior, I just need somebody Telling me I'm not in this alone
(...) Is there anybody out there? Are you a freak like me? Getting kicked out somewhere Are you a freak like me?
Tell me where you wanna go, and baby we'll go You don't gotta walk that way alone Fuck this place We don't gotta go back there
Number One FanMUNA
So I heard the bad news: Nobody likes me and I'm going to die alone In my bedroom, looking at strangers on my telephone Well wouldn't you, wouldn't you like if I believed those words? If I'm born to lose, I'll never try and I will never learn, but
I've been looking at myself in the mirror, saying Don't leave me now, don't leave me now (...) And I turn around like: Oh my god, like I'm your number one fan So iconic, like, big, like, stan, like -- I would give my life just to hold your hand I'm your number one fan, your number one fan
So here's the bad news: I'm coming for everyone and I'm coming on strong New hair and new shoes, yeah I get what I like because I do what I want
Distorted Light BeamBastille
Leveling up, delete my history Choose how you see me and the future's easier Leveling up, in here I'm winning Defeat the big boss, game over, your loss (...) When I'm dreaming tonight I can do anything When I'm dreaming tonight, I can go anywhere When I'm dreaming tonight, I can be anyone So don't wake me up, don't wake me up
Stay DeadAviators
Balance exists that calls through the abyss And in the chaos I create again
Go ahead, bury me I will not stay dead Hold me down, take my breath I will thrive instead
Lotta True CrimePenelope Scott
You got three motherfuckers in a big white van Two dumb friends and one mean man Well she'll fuckin' kill you, she wins every fight She's gonna rock your shit by the end of the night And the only advantage that a killer has Is they think they have the right
You've Created a MonsterBohnes
Fighting pushed me to the point of breaking Biting, clawing for the crown I'm taking You've created a monster I just keep getting stronger Nightmare, I'm gonna haunt you (You've created a monster)
Look what you've done You've created a monster
buzzkillMOTHICA
Got me upset, now I'm getting loud Better watch me burn this whole place down Ever since you, ever since you
Know what you did, don't let it happen again I pray for the kid that calls you a friend You pulled them right in, told them their sins Holy motherfucker, do you have something to say 'Cause this is the beginning of the price you're gonna pay
The Devil WithinDigital Daggers
I'm learning all your tricks I can hurt you from inside I made myself a promise You would never see me cry 'Til I make you
You'll never know what hit you
BLOW OUT MY CANDLEBetty Who
Did it help you sleep? Did it make you stronger, Beating up on me? I won't take it any longer
I won't stop running down that road I'll keep dancing til I die You can blow out my candle
The Devil WithinDigital Daggers
I'm learning all your tricks I can hurt you from inside I made myself a promise You would never see me cry 'Til I make you
You'll never know what hit you
BONUS TRACKS(CLICK)
As The World Falls Down - David Bowie; Labyrinth Cut into Pieces (Instrumental) - Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross; The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo Burn - The Cure; The Crow Creature - BONES UK Cry Little Sister (Theme from The Lost Boys) - Corvyx Video Kid - The Birthday Massacre Get Jinxed - Djerv, League of Legends Parallel Timeline With Alternate Outcome (Instrumental) - Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross; TGwtDT The Hunted - Snow Ghosts I Think We're Alone Now - The Birthday Massacre The Lengths (Theme from Orphan Black: Echoes) - Julien Baker, Calvin Lauber Girls Just Wanna Dance With Somebody Mashup - Pomplamoose Dancing with the DJ - The Knocks (Theme From) The Neverending Story - The Birthday Massacre